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What are you scared of?

What are your afraid of? Are you sacred of the dark? Are you scared of spiders? Do you have a fear of crowds? Scared of heights? Fearful of water? Are you frightened of failure? Does success scare you? Are you scared of love? Scared of being different? Scared of being really good at something? Scared of being really bad at something? Scared of living? Scared of dying?  Do tell, if not me, tell a another friend or family member you can also trust. 

But don’t allow them to decide what you should do ~ I know someone who involved other people in analysing a situation that they had very little idea about in full picture multi-dimensional reality. This ‘third party’ ego based one sided interference caused this person confusion, extra frustration and a lot of unnecessary conflict and harm health wise to both parties involved, because the people interfering had their own issues and selfish agendas. A wise therapist or true friend will not assume anything about you or your relationships and wouldn’t ever interfere with your psyche’s intuition. Support is great if it is heart based. True deep healing comes from learning to trust your own heart and instincts, no one can do that for you. 

Spending time alone and handing it over to God is great, but I don’t think that means God is sitting up there on a cloud way up high waiting for us to give him/her all our fears, and that they will suddenly just float away, while we sit there on the couch with our feet up, none the wiser drinking a cup of tea. I don’t believe God is outside and separate from us. 

Getting over fears that have been embedded into the primal part of our brains is a process, just like forgiveness is a process of the heart. So I believe the most important thing is to admit to yourself about your fears. I did this very effectively with EFT, asking questions and getting to the bottom of it, asking the universe or God, spirit guides, angels, whatever your spiritual beliefs are to guide and support you through it all helps immensely. Often our biggest fear guards our greatest strength. 

I think everyone at sometime is scared of something. Me, I wasn't scared of the dark in fact I wander about in the dark a lot, I never put the light on at night when I need to go to the loo etc...I have great night vision so even when I'm somewhere new I tend not to put the light on at night. I'm not scared of spiders either, I can pick them up with my hand even the REALLY big tarantula type ones!!! AM I convincing you of my bravery? Nah maybe not because bravery isn't about facing someone else's idea of what a fear is. Your fears are unique to you, bravery of course is not omitting them and pretending they don't exist. Bravery is about having the courage to admit being scared and walking through the threshold to the path you need to take for overcoming those fears, that is the true essence of a light warrior. 

So what was I scared of? I was scared of being the true, raw authentic, unique version of me that would align me with my souls purpose, I was scared of light not dark. I was scared of webs not spiders. I was also scared of receiving something that I was very happy to give in giant sized servings, which was kindness and love, but receiving it was blocked by the conditioning I'd had. Compliments would go straight over my head and attach to the person next to me...personal achievements felt like being dragged through rat infested sewers. The transformation of transmuting those dark energetic forces of others beliefs and opinions was an alien like concept for my heart and soul to come to terms with, for a very long time off and on, whilst fully embodying who I really was. To embody this 'alien like thing'  was going against everything I'd been taught about myself from my primary care givers. I'd essentially had most of the love for that light bashed out of me physically, emotionally, mentally and spirituality, so often by so many other peoples attitudes and actions that my creatively and acceptance of who I really was had turned into the hermit that hid in the dark recesses of my soul for protection for much of the time. 

So when I'm sharing with anyone through my art, poetry, food, music, feelings, photos, opinions, intellect, studies, therapies whether that be publicly or privately, It's not because I am boasting, or saying look at me, look how great my life is, all is perfect here, no worries. I am highlighting what we all have the potential to do, not just with recovery individually but also collectively. And to do that we all have to speak up and try to understand ourselves and each other. Because I can honestly tell you being able to shine that light after the reactions of those dark energies of my childhood, which haunted most days of my adulthood, was not something that felt good for a very long time, it often felt I was being disloyal, when in fact it was misplaced loyalty really. 

The raw authenticity was locked inside a mammoth amount of pain which had to be battled through physically and emotionally, which also profoundly affected my physiology. It often felt like pushing an elephant up Mount Everest, whilst bleeding to death, in the middle of a snow blizzard. The truth is it has been nothing short of an epic mind-blowing achievement, which not only rewired my brain and switched genes back on, but opened my heart to receiving the kind of love I truly deserve. 

This process of bringing my soul into alignment with its true desires, not only heightened my 3D awareness but shifted my consciousness to a place of being more aware of universal purpose and other dimensional paradigms. Prompting me to trust and accept the blessings of my gifts, which dissolved the illusion that my guard would protect me. This in turn led me to the shift of knowing that unwavering faith in Divine timing and the workings of the Universe is the service that is the most comforting and enlightening.  

Significantly spiders and their webs draw attention to our life choices, they also give us an overview of how we can realign our thinking in order to construct the life we wish to live. Spiders do this by calling our awareness to the amazing construction of their webs. Not only are they beautiful, but are fully functional, practical, and ingenious in design, spider webs serve as homes, food storage, egg incubators. When we consider this ingenious diversity, we can also consider the web-like construct of our own lives. How are we designing the most effective life? When we see our decisions, choices and actions as far-reaching, effective tools in life. We can see how we weave a web that can either serve us or enslave us. The spider symbol meaning beckons us to be mindful of our behaviour, smart about the life we weave for ourselves. We can derive more spider symbol meaning when we consider certain subtle characteristics that represent ancient symbols of infinity. The infinity symbol meanings occur when we consider most spiders have eight eyes and all have eight legs. The number eight is also a symbol of infinity or lemniscate (an eight turned on its side). Also, the vibrational frequency indicates the meaning of number eight involves cycles, passage of time, and evolution. 

One of my favourite Superhero's is Spiderman, who's yours?

Evolution and Authenticity...What does that mean for you? How does it feel? How does it affect you, your loved ones? How does it affect humanity? Does it need to?

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